Ruminations

What the hell happened to me? I used to be strong, fast, smart and funny. I used to be the envy of all the guys and idolized by all the girls that laid thier eyes on me. I didn't have a care in the world. Then suddenly I was in the second grade and everything changed. There was a girl named Nicole G that captured my heart and I was struck. I can already hear you know-it-alls out there grumbling the words "crush" and "puppy love" but obviously they have not had the pleasure(or displeasure) of having someone stuck on thier minds so totally. She was blond and hazel-eyed and she didn't seem to care about me at all. I think that's what struck me the most. She lived here life oblivious to my admiration of her. That's how it started. Fast forward a bunch of years and I'm in high school. Nicole has long since gone but that feeling never leaves. That want. Now here I am. I wish I could go back to before I met Nicole. I was someone else then. It seems that the me that is now is not the me that I thought I'd be but here I am nonetheless. Still, I could be worse off and there are bright things to look forward to. Enough ruminations for now. It's time for wild abandon with pixelated strangers. Have a fantastic week, people.